My (Three) Favorite Things in a Serious Crisis

This is the blog post I never wanted to write. 

Picture it:

One moment I’m in nature under gloriously scented pines, reveling in the crisp air, smelling intoxicating coffees percolating at surrounding campsites, hearing the laughter of families and friends on a holiday weekend. The next, a massive fire truck and ambulance are there to tend to my injuries after a brutal, inescapable attack from a canine.

With more and more people turning to somatic modalities for healing stress, anxiety and trauma, (not to mention chronic sleep difficulties, digestive issues, autoimmune conditions and relationship and boundary issues), it’s often easy to overlook how transformative these somatic modalities can be when shock trauma happens.

In a situation of inescapable attack - like with an unpredictable animal, or being robbed at knifepoint or a sexual assault - the nature of the threat is such that it’s often impossible to fight or flee, our first lines of protective responses. When those options don’t work, freeze is often the only other life-saving option available. And while helpful in the short-run, over the long run unless those defensive orienting responses are completed in the nervous system, serious complications can arise. 

In this blog post, I share three things I recently did when faced with an inescapable attack to mitigate the likelihood of developing symptoms of post-traumatic stress. 

1. Physical support

When I was attacked by a 70 lb dog earlier this year, as good fortune would have it, a park ranger was coming around the bend on a golf cart and saw the whole thing. He asked what I needed and my training as a Somatic Experiencing Practitioner kicked in. When experiencing a shock trauma, the human nervous system needs to co-regulate with another system if at all possible. Intuitively, I asked the kind ranger to place his hand on my shoulder and keep it there for a while. 

By doing so, my body avoided going into overwhelm. It trembled and shook, and the supportive physical contact helped my nervous system feel contained. 

Later, while we waited for the paramedics to arrive, the other ranger Paige and I sat together back to back. (Also - big shout out to both her and John for their wise compassionate care!)

Because our mammalian nervous system is like that of other animals, our bodies know we are safe and the ordeal is over when we can experience that kind of supportive, non-judgmental physical contact. 

Just like you will intuitively kiss a child’s boo boo, offering physical contact in the moment can do a lot to prevent the development of long term symptoms (like in my case avoiding places where there are large dogs or going camping again, a common symptom of unresolved post-traumatic stress).

It certainly did for my system.

2. Singing 

As we waited for care to arrive on the narrow mountain road under the majestic trees, I was reminded of and started spontaneously singing the childhood classic “My Favorite Things” from The Sound of Music: 

When the dog bites

When the bee stings

When I’m feeling sad,

I simply remember my favorite things

And then I don’t feel so bad!

And while the lyrics were helpful, what was really powerful was that my nervous system was naturally reaching for a very wise strategy.

The vagus nerve, the largest nerve in the body, contributes greatly to our self-regulation. The ability to calm down when we are too agitated – but also to reach for the healthy aggression that can often help protect us – is all related to the functioning of this massive nerve. Things that help support vagal tone including humming, chanting and singing, and spontaneous social engagement.

By singing, not only was my mind distracted from the blood gushing down my leg and the searing pain (Cream colored ponies and crisp apple strudel, doorbells and sleigh bells and schnitzel with noodles), but I was able to discharge some of the build up of energy that could have easily lead to an anxiety or panic attack or even shock, a critical condition brought on by the sudden drop in blood flow through the body. 

Plus when Paige joined in and sang with me, I actually had a moment of relief in what could have been an utterly terrifying and isolating experience. (Remember one definition of trauma is anything that overwhelms our capacity to cope, and leaves us feeling helpless, hopeless or unable to respond).

Trauma is anything that overwhelms our capacity to cope, and leaves us feeling helpless, hopeless or unable to respond.

By discharging the high level of energy in my system in a conscious way supported by presence, I was able to advocate for myself and hopefully prevent further traumatization (which often happens after a shocking incident like a car accident, fall, or dog bite).

3. Social engagement

After experiencing some physical support with contact from the park rangers, followed by the singing, there was one more piece that helped me regulate enough to be able to think clearly.

When the massive fire truck and paramedics arrived, I let the folks near me know it was important to speak in low voices. I also gently let them know that, despite the fact that it was a sunny summer morning, I needed the emergency response folks who were helping me to take off their sunglasses to make eye contact with me. 

(I should add that it was wonderful, empowering and affirming that they did - and not something I took for granted or would have necessarily happened for others, unfortunately). 

Again, because we are mammals, the need for contact with other mammals of the same species was incredibly helpful to my limbic system and other subcortical brain structures. These are the parts of the brain that keep our hearts beating, our lungs pumping and keep us alive with no conscious effort on our part. 

This system (the autonomic nervous system) is what is keeping you alive all day every day. 

Because eye contact is one of the primary ways we attach to other human beings for safety (check out what a baby does when there is a loud sound - it will often orient to the eyes of the primary caregiver), it’s incredibly helpful. If you’ve ever tried to have an intimate conversation with someone wearing sunglasses or glued to their phone and felt really uncomfortable, this is why. 

By simply letting folks know that my nervous system needed low voices and eye contact (kind of like a vulnerable baby does), the experience of medical intervention was far less jarring and traumatic.

While I certainly would have preferred to enjoy an easy weekend of camping, by having these somatic tools in my back pocket and using them, I’m hopeful I’ll continue to recover from my injuries. 

I hope you’ll reflect on these tools for regulation and how you might use them not only in a crisis, but in your daily life - at home, at work, on vacation and with the populations you serve. By doing so, you are taking an active role in your own healing and that of us all.

Let me know how it goes!

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Three Things You Need to Know About Boundaries

In this blog post, we’ll explore:

• What are healthy boundaries?

• The role of the nervous system

• Dos and Don’ts of boundary setting

While learning how to create and maintain healthy boundaries is a life-long practice and skill for many, there are a few things that you need to know to get started.

• What are healthy boundaries?

Healthy physical, emotional, financial, sexual, personal and spiritual boundaries are fundamentally about safety, respect and containment. At their best, like the skin, healthy boundaries allow what is nurturing and nourishing to come in, and keep out all the rest.

When boundaries are functioning best, they are firm and flexible. 

But what does it look like when our boundaries aren’t so ideal?

We might have walls for protection, meaning we block out any contact or incoming energy. On the other hand, we may adapt by having extremely porous boundaries where we basically take in everything around us without a filter. Both of these adaptations may be helpful at times, but healing trauma invites us to look towards cultivating boundaries that can take in a helpful amount and type of energetic information, and protect us from anything that isn’t.

For example, you might go through a painful divorce or breakup and say “Never again!” to dating or romantic relationships. That’s an example of a wall. 

Or maybe you can’t say no when your kids ask you for something or you spend money on stuff after you’ve promised yourself (yet again) not to do that. Those are examples of more porous boundaries. 

Now there’s nothing wrong with using walls or the absence of them. In fact, they are both common after we’ve experienced trauma - and one of the most common symptoms I see in my Somatic Experiencing clients.  They are in fact life saving. But when we can strengthen our boundaries - being more flexible where we are rigid and more solid where we are open - we can have many more choices and opportunities to thrive personally and professionally. 

We move from fixity to flow, rigidity to choice, compulsion to curiosity. 

• The role of the nervous system

Along with our cultural environment, our brain and nervous system are among the primary creators of our boundaries. 

Different systems in the brain relate to different parts of our energetic boundary system. 

Our physical boundaries are related to our skin and the most ancient part of the brain. The brain scans the environment (approximately four times per second in fact) to make sure our skin isn’t being touched in a way that is harmful or dangerous. This scanning is automatic in our brain stem, just as it is in the reptiles and our evolutionary elders. 

Our emotional and psychological boundaries are related to our limbic system, the subcortical structures of the brain. Our psychological boundaries are formed when we are children. When there is proper attunement and mirroring of our emotional landscape, we learn what our emotional identity is, and how it is different from those around us. 

For example, a two-year old having a tantrum might be offered a reflection, “Oh, it looks like you’re mad. You want to play with your toy, don’t you? It’s ok to be mad and right now it’s time for you to get dressed.” The child learns about the emotion “mad”, that it’s ok to feel that way, and that it is her feeling – no one else’s. With regular attunement, the child’s brain learns to know that her feelings and thoughts are ok, and to differentiate from those in her environment. She isn’t enmeshed with the feelings of those around her, but can clearly see where she starts and ends.

These psychological boundaries also allow in information that is true and keep out what isn’t. For example, if you’re told you are a blue truck, you might be able to keep that information out - because you know very well that you aren’t. 

Finally, our ability to keep our word to ourselves and practice impulse control (what might be called a containing boundary) is situated in the neocortex, the newest and most uniquely human part of the brain. This thin layer of gray matter is active when we keep to our commitment to finish the project rather than binging on Netflix, put down the phone and get a good night’s sleep rather than scrolling social media and finish one project before starting the next.

Knowing about the role of the brain and nervous system is helpful for generating compassion with ourselves when learning about boundaries. These adaptations took some time to develop, and they require time to evolve. The good news though is that with attention and intention - coupled with the miracle of neuroplasticity - our nervous system and boundaries can become more functional and life-affirming.

• Dos and Don’ts of boundary setting

Once we’ve established physical, psychological and personal boundaries, next up we can begin the practice of creating and maintaining them in our relationships. One of the most important things to keep in mind is that, if we aren’t first able to honor these foundational internal boundaries, it will be nearly impossible to have them with others. So to get started with setting limits with others, we have to begin even closer to home – with ourselves.

Yes you heard that right - don’t even try to set boundaries with your colleagues at work or your mother, if you haven’t first cultivated your own personal boundaries. 

In other words, when you can respect your physical integrity (and that of others), your emotional self (and the emotions or psychology of those around you without being unduly impacted) and your internal commitments (like when you say you are going to meditate every day for 20 minutes), you can then begin to communicate and execute boundaries far more effectively with others. 

Here are a few tips to get you started. 

DO: 

• Learn about boundaries

• Practice 

• Start with yourself

• Let go of the quick-fix

• Begin with the low hanging fruit 

• Take the win

• Get support

DON’T

• Start with the most challenging relationships

• Ask other people to do for you what you aren’t doing for yourself

• Make threats you won’t carry out

Generating healthy boundaries is one of the best things we can do for our physical, emotional, financial and spiritual health, and most of us need a little help along the way. 

If you’d like to strengthen your boundaries, reach out to a mental health provider, Somatic Experiencing Practitioner, trauma-informed coach or find a class. There are so many ways to to support your growth in this way — just find your way to get started. Whether it’s cognitively (by reading blog posts and books), somatically (through embodied practices) or experientially (through trial and error), you can heal and transform your boundaries for better health, relationships and financial abundance. By learning about healthy boundaries, the role or your nervous system and the dos and dont’s of boundary setting, you are already on your way.

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How to Get Motivated When You're Stuck - COVID19 Edition

If you’re a regular reader of the blog, then I know at least 2 things about you:

1. You’ve likely experienced stress, anxiety or trauma.

2. You care deeply about making a meaningful impact in the world.

Between the two of those things, and what trauma-informed yoga therapist De Jur calls, “The Global Retreat” caused by the pandemics of COVID19, racism and economic recession, my guess is that finding your mojo these days can be tough.

Recently there was a discussion in my on-going Group coaching program about how to get and stay motivated when you’re stuck in these incredibly challenging and poignant times.

Between the heat of the dog days of summer, the stress on parents with school-aged kids, and the upcoming election, it’s no surprise you might want to bury your head in the sand and take a 10 year nap.

Let me be clear: there are days when cultivating somatic awareness, listening to your body and staying in bed is definitely the wisest thing to do. 

And, for many of us, particularly folks who have been carrying too much of a burden for far too long, that’s often the most compassionate and loving thing to do.

But if that’s not you, how can you get up and go, when your giddy-up has up and gone?

Here are three questions I shared with my Group that might help you get motivated when you’re stuck around your personal, professional and spiritual goals, too:

1. What’s the smallest action you can take without your resistance kicking in?

Let’s say you’re a marathon runner. You love to go on long runs, with the wind in your hair and open country ahead of you. But when it’s 100 plus degrees out, even with a treadmill in your guest room, you can’t get motivated to move. 

Instead of trying to do the kind of run that you usually do, what’s the tiniest action you can take without your resistance kicking? 

Could you do one mile? 

Nope.

Still too much? What about half a mile?

Hmmmmm …

How about 100 yards?

The trick here is to reduce your expectations of yourself in the short-term by so much and make them so low that you cannot possibly fail. 

By focusing on the smallest action you can, you set yourself up for a win which boosts your self-esteem, gets you off of the endless Tiger King binge you’ve been on and breaks deadly inertia.

2. Can you use bookending to support you?

I absolutely love what I do for a living.

Helping folks master resilience to stress, anxiety and trauma in order to have a more meaningful impact in the world is my jam. It’s pretty much my favorite thing in the world (besides swimming in the Aegean, but that’s for another blog post).

But the one thing I still don’t love doing is accounting and bookkeeping and taxes.

(Can I hear an amen, my intuitive-feeler readers?)

Left to my own devices, I’ll put it off way too long.

What helps me, instead, is to use a practice called bookending, which creates some inner motivation and helps me engage with others. 

With bookending you have a goal in mind.

Say you want to spend 1 hour working on your taxes (or going for a run, or meditating for 20 minutes, or getting onto your yoga mat after weeks of eating too much Halo Top on the sofa). 

Next you commit to someone what you’re going to do and when. It’s usually a good idea for this to be a person who isn’t deeply impacted by your decision but wants to support you. It could be a friend, a co-worker or an Accountability Partner, like the ones in my Group Coaching program. 

Finally, when you’ve completed the task, you “bookend” the action, to once again reach out to your Accountability Partner and let them know you’ve done so. 

This ending ritual in particular is super important and is magic for self-esteem.

By doing so, not only do you get stuff done and keep moving forward with your goals, but you might even inspire someone else to take action, too. A win-win for sure! 

3. How can I create some regular accountability for myself in this area?

Our culture is obsessed with the toxic-fantasy of the self-made man (or woman). 

This is not news to you, I’m sure. 

The compulsion to pull yourself up by your bootstraps is one that many of us have learned is the only way of living that has value. Our egos get so wrapped up in doing things alone, that we don’t achieve what we could if we had just a little support. 

Full disclosure: I’m an unmarried only child and a double Leo. 

 Let’s just say that, like the sun, my ego can get so big because part of me still falls into the trap of believing the oppressive lie that, for something to count, I need to do it all by myself.

Thankfully, I’m supported by a number of spiritual, professional and activist communities that remind me that I can only show up for the work I’m meant to do in the world if I allow myself to be supported. Just the simple act of checking in with my authentic communities - where I can show up as my wholehearted, fabulous, and sometimes completely insane self - helps me stay accountable for my bigger purpose. 

Folks in my Group coaching program see that, too. 

They regularly create accountability for personal (“I’m gonna finally build that bookcase I’ve been staring at for months!”), professional (“Finally, I’m going to commit to launching that Healing Circle I’ve been talking about for ages!”) and spiritual goals (“I’m going to stay accountable for keeping my word this week to myself as well as to others”).

What matters is that you let someone (or some community where you can show up authentically) witness your goals, speak them and then take action around staying accountable. 

The bottom line, my dear one, is that right now, things are tough. 

Years from now, we’ll look back on this time inshallah and see how we used this seminal moment in our history. 

Not just what we felt, but what we did as Kamala so brilliantly reminded us.

My hope for all of us is that we use it wisely.

With these three questions you can check in to help yourself get motivated when you’re stuck.

For your benefit. And for the benefit of all those whose lives you touch. 

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